Going Native in America p3

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A vanishing act

Jenni was sitting 15 feet away from me and had just told me that she was going to vanish. And then two things happened at the same time. As I watched her she stood in one fluid motion and just as she reached a full standing position she stepped off to the right. But the strange thing was that she moved in jerks. It was like taking snapshots of here every millisecond. In the space of a couple of seconds I saw about 7-10 snaps of her and she had only gone about 5 feet from her sitting position when the second thing happened.

I wretched. Doubling over and leaning forward I threw up again and again. Eugh! Now I am not knew to throwing up having been to university (alcohol + pizza’s) had given me a few of those experiences but this was different (now that I recall it) It was as if a hand had shoved itself down my throat to the bottom of my stomach, grabbed what was in there and pulled it out.

By the time I had recovered, Jenni was nowhere to be seen and her two friends had moved a few more feet away from me. Fortunately because of the way I was sat I didn’t get anything on me (was this why she had said sit in a kneeling position? I hadn’t asked).

I described my experience of Jenni (seeming to) vanish to Tom and he replied that it was because I was too stiff in my beliefs. Really? I’m like Alice and can believe seven impossible things before breakfast. He laughed, Why were you sick then?

Tom told me that saying you believe in something is worthless. Acting and experiencing is what counts. That is what shifts the world.

I asked him where Jenni was. She is gone. But where? He shrugged. Gone. Again, I explained how I had seen her rise and seemingly walk away. That’s not what happened he said.

What you saw and what happened were different. I was non-plussed at this statement. You mean to say that I have to believe in her being able to vanish to see her vanishing. Yes, he said and pointed at me, but you experienced her vanishing. He laughed as he gestured at my stomach and drew a line to my mouth.

My further questions were turned away by the answer that Jenni would explain it tomorrow. I walked away from the beach with careful steps. My stomach was still feeling crumbly (although nothing further happened).

Explanations

Later that evening I asked the dowsing rods whether Jenni had indeed vanished. The answer was Yes. You might ask, why I didn’t ask on the beach. Because…

At one point during our conversation I, quite innocently, drew out my rods to confirm some point and all three of them watched in amazement and laughed so loud that I embarrassingly put them away. Although they insisted that I should carry on, my embarrassment was too great.

We all met the next day and Jenni was smiling brightly as she shook my hand. She had a strong grip. “What did you think of my disappearing?” She asked. Very impressive, I said a bit sarcastically.

She laughed, they all did. She explained. “You didn’t see because you didn’t believe.” I argued that I did believe but she said, “if you had, you would have seen me vanish.”

It was the same point that Tom and Sam had made the day before. I had no place to go from my side of the argument. At one point Jenni said that there was a way in which I could see it. How? “You would have to enter an altered state.” She said.

Gwas laughed his head off when I was relating to him these tales. From day one (Oh about 20 years ago) Gwas had a point that I had to experience some form of drug induced state, so that I could appreciate its place in other worldly experiences. Since that time I have steadfastly refused for several reasons.

Drugs? She didn’t shy away from it. “If that’s what you want to call it.” She said that my view of the world had to be broken, experimentally broken.

I have to say that through our conversations one of the things I took away is that saying one believes means practically nothing. From their perspectives it was all about experience.

The quickest way to experientially break someone was to use a form of hallucinogenic. “Though of course,” Jenni said, “It isn’t really a hallucination inducing drug.” I said I would think about it and let her know tomorrow (since we had already determined that we would meet for 3 days).

So we talked and shared some more…

What is the Energy Double?

Over the last year and half I have pursued a thread of exploration which I called the Energy Double. My assumption was that the Energy Double was something that a person could produce and let explore the world and beyond. Here is a link to the posts that mention this entity.

During my conversations with Tom, Sam and Jenni I learned that the Energy Double isn’t a double at all. The conversation began when I told them about my experiences with my Energy Double. After I had described a few of them, Jenni asked what my conclusion was about this thing.

For me the energy double is something that:

• You create a double when you start working with energies.
• Has a life of its own and is sometimes within a person and often times without. Although it is difficult to tell whether it is inside one.
• It is immensely powerful and can travel across the globe and beyond (Jupiter for instance)
• It is very child like. In fact it could be considered to be a child.

You are right in almost all of these Jenni told me. The exception is this. You don’t create the energy double when you start working with energies. It is always there.

She then revealed a startling truth. The energy double isn’t really a double at all. It is your true self. Or more accurately it is more you than the you that is sat here. Their idea was that the energy double is in fact your energy and that the person that we represent or rather present to the world was a shallow creation.

This creation almost completely takes over the running of our life so much so that our true energetic self gains no experience of living (in a social world) at all. It deals with the world on an energetic level. To us, the energetic dealing looks to be childish.

I am going to quite honest with you readers, I had lost the reason behind this discussion and even now I am trying to put what she meant together. It was so far beyond my knowledge that I was nodding my head during the explanation but was in reality lost.

Still, I hope to bring you more on this topic as time goes by since as far as those Natives go. They said that the main objective of one who is travelling a path destined for magic is to bring the distance between the energy double and the social face as close as possible. Indeed for one to merge with the other.

Onto another matter that came up.

Perception of reality.

I have read many books on Native American beliefs and one that has left a deep impression on both Gwas and I are the works of Carlos Castaneda. So it was inevitable that he came up in the conversation at some point. I ask them how much their beliefs and experiences where in line with Castaneda’s.

One place where they differed was concerning perception. According to Jenni. Reality was a vibration. Perception of reality is based on our alignment with reality. This wasn’t new to me and probably isn’t new to you either. However what she said is that what we can do is shift ours perception vibration. The weird thing she added was that when we shift our perception we shift too.

Strange right? The world you see is the world you are in.

And we were back on to her vanishing. What she said was that she had shifted her perception and thus hadn’t so much moved physically but rather vibrationally. And what does an observer see?

I had to laugh at myself as this is what Castaneda was always asking his teacher, Don Juan.

Jenni however laughed, the observer becomes sick. We all laughed. Her answer was that perception compensated for it. You believe what you see and what you see is what you believe.

Hmmm sounds like Yoda. If this is confusing you. Don’t worry. So was I. But I guess I wanted to get my initial thoughts down and later on I can assimilate it (I hope).

We were near the end of our meeting when Jenni asked me a curious question. Is there a habit that you want to get rid of? What? A habit, like something you wanted to quit? A new years resolution that didn’t work?

Hmmm I thought about it for a moment. Coffee. I have wanted to quit for a while with no joy. Had a few goes but never lasted more than a couple of days.

I can sort that out for you, if you like? Okayyy.

See you at part 4

Kal Malik