At the Sheen Valley Heritage Centre I had spotted a sign that had something to do with my favourite hag Cailleach and had intimated to Gwas that it should go our itinerary. However after the amazing experiences of integration at that place I plain forgot about it and from the direction we were driving it seemed like we had passed the place before I remembered.
Rather disappointed with my forgetfulness, I regretfully said to Gwas, “let’s skip it” and we continued to drive. Then, turning a bend in the road we spotted a sign for it. Wonderful! Of course we turned in and were delighted to sample Molly’s home made – pippin hot – apple crumble sans custard.
Around the back of this establishment was the place we were looking for. A well signposted walkway led us up to the place I was looking for Cailleach Bui. At the top of the walk was a ridge that I was directed to walk by the rods. I clambered up the rough edge and began the rather precarious climb/walk back (along the ridge) as directed by the rods. I came to the end of it and the rods turned towards empty space and the view across the valley.
Cailleach Beara Bui is the range that I was staring at. Since day one I have proclaimed that for me Cailleach is a Sun Goddess and here was a sign proclaiming or at least pointing in that direction, Cailleach Sun!
I love it when that happens! I mean, come on, how long have I been saying it?! After some minutes spent in awe of the beautiful mountains I turned and lifted the rods to follow them back. No, they turned back towards the mountain range. I was puzzled, obviously I was missing something, but what?
Was there something that I needed to do here? A ceremony, a commune, a gratitude gift? No, no and no. What was I missing? Again I turned and started to head back along the ridge only to be taken back to the same point. I looked down but could not spot a safe way down. Surely the rods didn’t want me to scrabble down the side of the minor cliff? Yes they did! What! That was NOT going to happen I said to the world at large. Thing is though, inside I knew it had to. Madness!
With Gwas busy with his work, I had no recourse but to listen to my internal voice. So, with a huge degree of trepidation, I began the climb down. A few minutes I had reached the bottom, with no bones broken but blood had been spilt.
Feeling that a goddess had had my back, I prepped to do a gratitude ceremony when I felt her appear…and wow! Have you ever felt the gratitude of a Goddess? Neither have I until that moment. Cailleach was sending/blessing me with gratitude energy. It was a big thing. I instinctively knew it. It was bigger than I could comprehend. Words are lost…
I had been touched by that which spans the unknown and the unknowable. A touch that had the flavour of gratitude infused in it. Honestly, I don’t know if I will ever have that feeling again.
…sigh! I walked back in a stupor of awe and emotion. What had just happened?
Kal Malik and Cailleach Bui
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